Still talking about it?

In six weeks or so, it will have been three years since I called Amy to tell her to come to the counseling office in order to tell her the horrendous news. In some ways, that seems like a lifetime ago. In other ways, it seems so short. The ups and downs have been quite a ride, but God has proven faithful, loving, merciful, and good since the beginning of our journey.

This summer has been an emotionally and spiritually draining yet necessary pruning process. July has been better, and Amy and I both are seeing some of the fog lift. We are beginning to see more of the purposes God has in store for us - though we both know it's a "daily bread" sort of process. There is still much to sort out. We are praying for understanding in various areas of our life, but overall, we are full of gratitude and thankfulness. We continue to walk this path one day at a time. With the love and support of friends, it has been more manageable. Some days, we both feel a bit alone, but that is mostly because we have a lot to sort out privately with each other and the Lord.

We still talk about it with one another and others as it comes up. It's etched into our story, whether we want it to be or not. We want God to be honored despite the pain. We want full healing personally and in our marriage. We can get by without talking about "it" for days, maybe even weeks at a time, but it's still there. The effects are still lingering. BUT, God is the hero of our story, so in some ways we rejoice in talking about because of what all He has done. If we make it about His redeeming work and not just the failure and "ugliness" of it, then it takes on a new meaning.