Do
you ever feel like a "mess" or "wreck?" I do, even this morning. I want to allow God to keep "pruning and tilling" my heart and mind and soul, but it is seemingly too slow. His ways and thoughts and time table are much different than mine. I want to trust His plan and process, but I admit that I get weary at times. I even woke up at 1:16 am today pondering the parts of my "mess" that still linger on. Thankfully, by "prayer and petition" I was able to give it to Him and go back to sleep.
I believe that God is so good that He
can make my "mess" a work of art, beautiful, purposeful and
meaningful. He has done so much up to this point. Why doubt or fear now? This phase of the "tilling" and weeding" process is painful,
slow, and doesn't feel very loving, but I know He is loving. I don't want to waste too much energy on the lie that says otherwise. The end result and process will be
glorious if I allow it to happen, in time. As the man in Mark chapter
9 said, "I believe. Help my unbelief."
For years, I kept my secret sins hidden until God busted them wide open in 2011. God used my public and private confessions to begin my healing and redemption. I learned that what happens behind closed doors at home, the church, the office, and everywhere else can "make or break us." God works in the Light (1 John 1:5)while evil thrives in darkness/secrecy (Ephesians 5:8-13). This is a blog about my journey.
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